down for the count

I'm so exhausted today.  My head is one giant cloud of fog.  My neurologist gave me a free sample of a different narcolepsy medication to take in the morning.  all it is is the active ingredient from the one I'm already taking.  So I took it this morning and had 3 cups of coffee and I"m still completely exhausted.  I guess it isn't fair to say the nuvigil isn't working since I've been more exhausted than normal lately so it has more to fight against.  But I feel like I could fall asleep right now which is kind of defeating the purpose of it.  But emotional stress can be really draining, especially for me, so I'll give it time.

Except I don't have a lot of time because I have an exam Monday and I've barely studied for it. I've been trying off and on all day and I'm getting nowhere.  I'm so tired I can't think hard enough to make sense of anything I'm reading.  Jayme's coming over tomorrow so hopefully I'll be able to concentrate by tomorrow.  But who knows.

I hate asking for more time for exams.  I always feel so weird and guilty and weak.  Like professors will think less of me.  But my professors know me well enough by now to know I'm not asking for more time simply because I've been too lazy to study.  I hope so, anyway.  I emailed them this morning... but I haven't heard back from either one of them and it's already 4pm on a Friday... so I"m getting nervous that they aren't going to get the email until Monday morning and I won't know either way until then...

I was hoping to catch you yesterday when I stopped by campus but I couldn't find either of you.  I wanted to keep you updated.  I had another appointment with my neurologist yesterday with more upsetting news and with more tests and follow ups scheduled.  These last few weeks have been physically and emotionally draining, and it's taking a lot of effort to just keep myself from completely falling apart.  With all of these things hitting one right after the other, I'm finding it really difficult to be able to concentrate.  I'm doing the best I can to be prepared for the exam on Monday but, under the circumstances, I was wondering if I could have a plan B and have the option to take the exam on Wednesday, if absolutely necessary.
-Andi

I hope they email me soon.  I need some sort of reassurance I'll be okay.