a day of nothing

i have not done anything today.
tomorrow is my niece's 6th birthday, so of course i'm going there after Mass tomorrow.

I'm getting  a sore throat.  More sore than my usual sore throat.

i try to study, try to focus on anything and after 5 minutes i can't even think hard enough to understand what i'm reading. 

i haven't heard back from my professors about the exam on monday.  but at this rate, i won't be ready. 

i don't know if the new narcolepsy med isn't working, or if I need to adjust to it, or if i'm getting sick and my body is fighting something? 
I feel absolutely horrible.  All of me aches and my brain is in a giant cloud of fog. 

i feel like so lazy.  but it's not like i haven't been trying.  i have been.  but i have been physically and mentally unable to do so.

i guess i have to trust that my professors won't make me take the exam on monday.  but it's hard for me to trust that.  i could always just not show up, except that we have a class right before the exam that wouldn't be good to miss.

i don't know.  i'm all over the place.
i need to finish the purse i'm knitting for my niece, too.  I'm almost done.  I'm just too apathetic to do it.
There's always tomorrow morning, right?  I'm going to the 1:30 Mass tomorrow...
My original plan was to work in the morning before Mass, but at this point, I don't think I can.  I have too much to do, plus I don't feel capable of thinking that hard.  I need to email my boss and let him know I've been sick lately and that's why i haven't gone in much...

I hate falling short in what i do.

i feel like a bad student, a bad employee, a bad friend, and a bad daughter. 

i can't take this anymore.