trying

Well, day 1 of reducing my exercise has been a failure.  Although, Lisa says to judge it as a weekly total, not necessarily on a daily basis, so maybe by the end of the week it'll be okay.  But I'll try to be honest tonight when I email her my final totals. 

I've really wanted to Nathan about all of this.  But I really won't be able to until Thursday night.  He has a huge exam on Thursday, and until then he's either in class or at work.  Plus he has homework due his two other classes, tomorrow and thursday morning.  He's a bit stressed.  I won't even be able to talk to him much until Thursday night, let alone discuss this with him. 
There's no way I'll tell my mom about it.  She'll be on my case whenever I workout at home.  The worst thing for me is feeling like I'm being monitored.  And that's what I feel like my parents do if they know something is up. 
At least with Nathan, he trusts me, and he's never with me when I workout so in that respect, he couldn't monitor me if he wanted to. 
But without him knowing, I feel kind of alone in this.

I need to go eat a snack... but part of me is saying I don't need it.  But... I do need it.  I'm hungry and I can't let myself go under today.  Especially when I'm checking in with Lisa.