I hate snow

I'm so anxious about making decisions.  I was supposed to go to campus either today or tomorrow to help a professor in her lab. (we're on "spring break" this week) At first I told her Tuesday worked out.  But then I called the florist who is doing our wedding and she was open Tuesday at 12 for an appt.  So I did that,  and emailed Dr R telling her something came up on Tuesday, that I'll come in on Monday. 
I woke up to 5 inches of snow and it's still coming down.  My guess is an inch an hour, and it isn't supposed to stop until 4pm.  Mom said when she went out this morning the plows weren't even out yet.  I guess they wanted to wait until it stopped snowing?  I don't know.  Anyway, I started freaking out because I live on a dirt road which is difficult to get my car down when it's snowy and icy.  Plus, I knew the main roads were bad- mom said they were really icy.  Campus is 30 minutes away- about 20 miles.  And it's not that I don't think I can handle the snowy roads (assuming I can get to the main roads), it's that I don't trust OTHER drivers.  You'd think that living in Michigan, everyone would know how to drive in the snow.  But no, everyone freaks out and drives like idiots.  It's rather pathetic.  So I'm scared to drive anywhere today because of idiot drivers who will probably be texting while they drive (I'm anti-texting... ESPECIALLY WHEN DRIVING.  but i know of people who do this and it makes me come close to hating them).

ANYWAY.  I started freaking out to my mom, not knowing what to do because, of course, I'm indecisive as ever.  I finally came to the decision that since I don't HAVE to go in today, that she said I had the option of Monday or Tuesday, I should just in Tuesday and be safe and not drive anywhere tonight.  Sounds reasonable, I suppose.  I asked mom "am I being safe or am I being a baby and a wimp".  She gave me a look and said, "probably a wimp, but you're right, there's no sense in risking it when you don't have to."

So I emailed Dr R telling her I was declaring a personal snow day, had rearranged things tomorrow, and can be there early afternoon tomorrow instead.
I didn't rearrange anything, but the florist thing shouldn't last that long, and she did say that if the person before us gets done early, she'd call us and we can come in even earlier.  So technically, I should be able to get to campus by early afternoon.

But now I keep second guessing myself.  I keep thinking- I should have just dealt with the roads and gone in today.  Now I can't go to the spinning class later on.  True, I can work out at home, but I can't do spinning at home.  And I keep worrying that Dr R was counting on me today- even though originally I was going in on Tuesday.  I know it doesn't matter.  All she needs me for is washing out a lot of glassware in her research lab.  She said it'll only take a couple of hours.  I can do that tomorrow.

But I'm freaking out.  I hate snow.  Winter is fine, but I hate snowy, icy roads.  I hate that winter in Michigan is dangerous.  I keep turning on the news only to see images of more car crashes.  I don't want that to be me, but really- I don't want that to be anyone.  I hate snow.

So I guess I'll study all day, try to be productive.  Maybe get a workout in later.  Maybe even get my room picked up (since it's a disaster zone right now).
But I need to get over this nagging guilt I have over staying home all day.  We are going to the cake lady's house tonight to pick out a wedding cake, but I'm going to make Nathan drive since he has a jeep and can get through anything.

It's not helping that mom is making peanutbutter chicken tonight for dinner.  That's a scary food for me.  I usually avoid being home for dinner when she makes this.  But obviously I'm stuck at home and can't avoid it.