a little bit of everything

Still haven't heard back from Lisa... but I've been checking my email every hour...

I finished my paper today.  And I went to work for 4 hours.  Both are big accomplishments since I was dreading both of them.  Only managed a "mini"workout (aka, not enough), but I'm trying to be okay about it.  i didn't track my food today, either, and that might not be helping my anxiety levels.  maybe I should, it might put my mind at ease.

Listened to good music tonight and relaxed.  Felt kind of weird to do that.  I felt like I was wasting time.  But I had the house to myself, had my paper done, was home from work, was still waiting on jayme to finish typing up our stuff from yesterday so i can make the power point.  i could have studied molecular diagnostics... but i was tired.  So i sat on the couch with the laptop and listened to Alexisonfire and some City and Colour.  Pretty much opposite types of music, but Dallas Green sings in both and his voice is amazing. 

Got to talk to Nathan tonight when he got off work.  I miss him.  I get to see him tomorrow.  For Mass, and then we'll split ways again for the day but he's coming over to my house tomorrow night to study and hang out. 

After Mass, I'm going straight to the anatomy lab to finish the foot dissection since I didn't make it out there today.  I hope it doesn't take me too much longer.  but it's a hard dissection.

here's a conversation I had with a friend who is actually in school to be a pathologist right now:

her: Dude foot dissecting is hard. What do you dissect? Do you go all the way down to the interosseous muscles?

me: i'm going all the way down to the ligaments. it's very tedious... which is partly why i love it so much.  no muscles are left on the foot as of now (except for some around the toes that is so hard to get off but doesn't matter for what she needs it for). i have the bifurcate and spring ligaments and a few others. the guy's foot doesn't exactly look like my Netters' pictures so I'm slightly confused. i got the foot that i did last year out and that helped more than the picture. :P 

her: HOT DAMN your doing THOSE? I don't think we ever got that detailed in my anatomy lab. Those were just too difficult to get to.  
(i loved this response) 


I like being good at something (and dare I say, better than other people at something).  Something outside of the ED.  I like being recognized for my talents... actually, just having a talent is good enough.  But being recognized for it, especially professors, feels really good. It kind of feels weird, though... to accept it. 
I used to have violin and dance, but those have been on the back-burner lately. 

 Meh.  I need to get to bed.  Maybe I wouldn't hate morning so much if I managed to get to bed at a decent hour.  Not that going to bed early does any good... i still lay awake for hours.