bad timing

So tonight at dinner, right after I put the last little bit of rice that was in the pot on my plate, my dad says "wasn't your dress fitting yesterday?" i said, "no, i thought it was, but it's on tuesday".  "oh... okay"

WHY WHY WHY WHY did he have to mention a dress fitting as I was about to eat a little bit extra rice?  I ran today, I had enough room in my calorie range to eat that little scoop of rice.  It wasn't like I was over-eating and wouldn't fit into my dress.

I know he probably didn't mean for what he said to be connected in any way with the rice.  But.. he said it.  And then I didn't want the rice.  But, I knew if I didn't eat it,  it would look weird, send up red flags, and my mom would get all upset.
So i ate the damn rice.

but now i'm freaking out.  what if my dress doesn't fit on Tuesday?

It fit just fine when i first tried it on, but if i got bigger then it would be too tight.

i've been too scared to weigh in or measure myself for a few weeks... so I don't really even know.
I need to check tomorrow.



I have my wedding shower tomorrow.  I have two exams on Monday.
I'm not prepared for either one of them.
And I'm kind of stressed out, but kind of too numb to care.
I'm not at any risk of failing these two classes.
All I have to do is pass them, at this point.
I'm graduating in 7 days.
All I have to do is pass.