internships

i had a shift in mindset yesterday. i'm back to eating better.

i had a shakey week. there were days where i didn't eat anywhere near the amount i was supposed to... and then other days my exchanges were all off, even if i got enough total.
i think everything just got to me. and the fact i went 4 days without working out again didn't help.
but i'm back in the swing of things.
and it's weird, i have a feeling that now, my body will start responding.
i dont know why now is any different, but it just feels like it is.

i feel ready to take on the world


i'm excited for my internship, too.
which is 2 years away....
but i'm still excited about it. especially if I get accepted at st Johns. Brandon was telling me about it yesterday- thats where he did his internship and is working now- and you get a stipand and benefits and everything.
i'm hoping that there won't be as many applicants for that one, because it's still 11 months with lectures. beaumont just changed theirs and eliminated the lectures and cut it down to 6 months. i think more people will be likely to apply to beaumont instead of st johns... so maybe i'll have a better shot.
being done in 6 months would be nice--- but really- i think lectures would help me. i want to be absorbed into that environment and all of that knowledge. i want to feel prepared when i go to take the boards. and beaumont doesn't give any money. and-- i hate beaumont- from a patient point of view- so i would be okay not working there.


it's 2 years off but i'm already dreaming