Lost

casey called me tonight. left a message. she said "i have something to tell you. call me back"
but from the sound of her voice- it sounded positive.
the first thing i thought was "ah! Caseys' pregnant!"
so i wasn't expecting to hear what she told me when i called her back.
she had been pregnant... she lost the baby today.
i need to give her a hug. i hate seattle... too far away.
she said she had finally started relaxing about it- because she was 7 weeks along and she thought she was going to be fine.
Then she ended up needing to go to the ER this afternoon.
Oh, Casey.
I feel so bad for her and Robert. She sounded so sad.
I asked if she named the baby. She said they were still thinking of a good unisex name. I told her that I named Ryann's (Jordan Leigh), but I can't remember if I ever told Ryann that.

I can tell the tears are coming. But it hasn't fully hit me yet.
It's just so sad. That tiny little person, just trying to grow big and strong so that he could come out and play. It doesn't seem fair. So innocent and helpless. There's another soul in Heaven today. Maybe he found his cousin, Jordan, and they're playing together now.

ok. the tears aren't stuck anymore.

i need to give casey a hug.