rushed

ugh. life.


i'm glad i like hematology.
if i didn't like at least one of my classes... i'd be hating school a lot right now.

anemias are really interesting.

jayme and i studied hypoproliferative anemias today in between our labs. I feel a lot better about all of those now.
I studied the macrocytic and megaloblastic anemias when I got home. now im typing up the notes and i'm half way through. i needed a quick break.

i'm glad i don't have classes on Friday.

i've been edgy lately.
i just feel... pressured.
like i have so much to do and there can't be any possible way that i'll manage to get it all done in time. it's just this feeling of being rushed, of not being able to relax for a minute.
i tried working out last night but wasn't able to do much. i think that's part of it. i felt guilty for working out when i have so many things to study and cram into my head, plus work and other things. i didn't workout tonight either (uuuuuugggggggghhhhhhh) because i was feeling so anxious about hematology. so i came home and studied for a couple hours instead.
I WILL EXERCISE TOMORROW.
i have to. i know that isn't helping my anxiety levels at all.

i just always feel uneasy.

nathan wanted me to ask brandon if we could get together tomorrow night and i had a freak out in my mind for a second. i WANT to see my brother. but i can't lose two nights of the weekend (going to the hockey game saturday night!). tomorrow is just busy, and if i hung out with brandon i would lose all of my study time, except for a couple hours in the morning.

i've just freaking out.
and i don't even know why.
i have a hematology lab exam on tuesday, but that really shouldn't be that bad. it's just lab math.
we have a hematology lecture quiz on tuesday. at least it isn't a full exam, but still- her quizzes are hard and there is a lot of material for this one quiz. but it isn't an exam.

but that's all i have next week. so WHY am i freaking out right now?


i need to run.

figuratively and literally