Sleep deprived

so last night i was exhausted. i took rozerem and went to bed by 10:30, prepared to sleep allllll night and wake up refreshed.

nope.
i was up until 3am again.
even with rozerem and an intense workout previously that morning.

stupid.

so i got up, after 5 hours of sleep, went back to the gym. tried swimming again... felt pretty pathetic doing that. between being tired and having swam yesterday, and hardly swimming in the last 2 years, i wasn't really feeling all that great in the water. so i did some other things for my workout.
then went to Mass, then went to work.
It took an hour and a half for me to update the spreadsheets and do the monthly audit report for January.
i hate that most about my job. i dread the end of each month.


anyway, i'm hungry. and debating whether or not to wait for Nathan to get here to eat. maybe i'll have a snack or something.

Jess and Jakob are coming over later tonight for an Anti-superbowl party.
I'm not sure what we're going to do yet, but i'm sure it'll be fun.


i am so tired.
if i don't sleep tonight, i'm going to be pissed off.
i purposefully overdid the exercise this morning, just so that i'd sleep tonight.
i know that doesn't always work, but something has to work.