my silly body.

had PT again this morning. had a re-eval, which was interesting. my ankles are getting stronger and i have a lot more ROM, but still not enough and im still weaker than i should be. i got a new exercise to do- which is all balancing on one foot at a time (while i pull a weighted cable across in front of me). hahahahahahaha what a joke! i have no balance. my ankles were wobbling all over the place and i kept on tipping over. after that my legs and ankles are so tired.

it didn't help that i couldn't sleep last night.
which was SO frustrating because i fell asleep at Nathan's, or at least was about to. so I left his house thinking I'd be able to crash as soon as i got home. Nope. of course not. i went to bed, couldn't sleep, got up a couple times, finally went back to bed around 2:30, tossed and turned all night. i was so anxious, i kept freaking out and i have no idea why. i'd have to lay there and remind myself to breathe deeply and slowly and to relax. at one point i yelled at myself "ANDI! STOP THIS! RELAX ALREADY!" (it's a good thing im home alone this week so my parents didn't hear me yelling at myself!) i think i finally got to sleep around 5.

i called him this morning and said "we need to get married. i seem to only be able to sleep when im with you"

343 more days!

saw my sports dr this morning (before PT- so i had to get up at 7, after being up all night. blech). got a prescription for the bone density scan!
I asked my PT, Kim, when she thinks i could run if my bones end up being strong enough.
She said that at the 6 week mark i might be ready to start working my way into it(doing things on the trampoline and mini jumps on the total gym to get used to the bouncing movements). my 6 week mark would probably be when i get the results of the scan back, which is perfect timing, which makes me even more hopeful that God is making it all work out and that i'll be running soon.
i have a good feeling about my bones. maybe i'm just trying to be hopeful and that's why. but i don't know- i can't explain it. i just feel like my bones are going to be okay.

i want to work out today.
but i'm really tired.
i'm definitely too tired to focus at work, so im not even going to try.

annoying.