i was looking through old pictures on the computer today, trying to find some from 2005. but i looked at the ones from febrary two years ago. the ones from when we went to florida. and i was 102lbs.
dont know why i do this to myself. look back and remember what it was like.
but i miss it.
i really really really miss it.
About Me
- Andi
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- I'm a nerd and am about to graduate with a medical science degree and work in a hospital diagnostics lab, I'm in love and about to get married, I'm a recovering eating disordered person who is currently winning the battle. I am an aunt, I am a little sister, I am Catholic, I am driven. I am me.
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I went to leave a comment earlier and it wouldn't let me. so let's try again.
I do this. I see older pics of me and although I don't miss what it took to get there, i want "there" back. i'm struggling a lot with that right now, that duality in my head since I've never ever weighed even close to this and they promised me i never would. (sorry. this is not supposed to be about me)
but i wanted you to know that i hear you. i don't let myself get picture albums out very often. i have a separate "Alex album" so that sort of helps.
does it ever get easier? i "should have" lost weight by now with my MP, and i haven't. i still haven't. i hate being stuck here. i never signed up for this.
i miss being there a lot.
i was hoping this would be getting easier.
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