go back up.

Things have been going well.  I've enjoyed being a wife and keeping the apartment in order.  It's fun.  And it's been awesome it just being Nathan and I together, alone, all of the time (when he's not working, etc, obviously). 

Problem is- started noticing my moods shifting downward last night, and I woke up-- i didn't want to get out of bed.  I didn't want to do anything but curl into a ball.  I've been fighting the urge all day.  But I honestly feel like, if I were to let myself, I could easily break down into tears right now.  there is no reason for that!!!!  Life is freaking awesome right now!  


I got up, ate breakfast and watched Mythbusters, then went to my grandparent's house with the rest of the family.  Had a nice time.  Came home and ate lunch, tried to clean a bit, started prepping dinner.  I'm tired, but I'm going to try to force a workout, shower, do laundry, and by then Nathan should be home from work, I can finish dinner, eat, then we're going to Mass tonight.  trying to keep busy so that I can't think.

I dont know if it's a crash from so many happy emotions and chaos of the wedding/honeymoon/moving into the apartment, and now that things have settled, it's just hitting me.  i don't know if it's my grandpa. 
It's probably just the change.
I never handle change well.

i hope this doesn't last long.

i hate being bipolar.