denied.

I want to cut really badly today. but it's getting warmer, and i can't keep hiding in hoodies and long pants. and the dress im wearing tomorrow is knee lenght and doesn't have sleeves. so my arms and calves are out, which feel the best and are my two favorite places.

i hate caring.

i should eat lunch. but everyone is here (about to eat lunch) and i'm anxious and I don't want to eat in front of everyone.

Blech. I want to go back to bed.